Tired,
Thursday, July 22, 2010 // 11:00 PM
Sometimes I really wonder when'll all these end. I'm flunking all my tests, I don't even know how to get back to my old self which most prolly suck to the max and will cause me to fail everything in EOY. Never mind about that, when the time comes, it will. Life always suck anyway.
Nowadays, moodiness seem to have become a daily routine, or daily must-have. The worst part is not knowing why I feel this way. I really hate myself for being this way sometimes, I'm always too blind to see what's taking place in me. The worst thing is when that I only notice it when the change is complete, when there's nothing I can do about it anymore. This Melissa, I barely know her. She's lazy to the very max, she'd be the winner if she's in a laziness competition. She gets bad mod all the time. The worst thing about her is that she's forgotten how to love. I don't know how I, the new Melissa's gonna live on.
I'm having a balloon fetish. I've finally mastered how to blow balloons yesterday. A bit later, but yeah. And I can blow two at the same time. They're making my day. Well, not as much as someone could. And only he could. I miss him, I do, but there's nothing I can do. It's always the time you need the person most you notice how dumb you are. I'm at the down-est down now. I don't know how I'm gonna make it through.
PS. Sometimes I wish I could have my memory wiped clean. Then at least it won't be so painful. I'll forget him, I'll forget how bad my wrist is causing my playing to suck. Everything, gone.
Tired,
Thursday, July 22, 2010 // 11:00 PM
Sometimes I really wonder when'll all these end. I'm flunking all my tests, I don't even know how to get back to my old self which most prolly suck to the max and will cause me to fail everything in EOY. Never mind about that, when the time comes, it will. Life always suck anyway.
Nowadays, moodiness seem to have become a daily routine, or daily must-have. The worst part is not knowing why I feel this way. I really hate myself for being this way sometimes, I'm always too blind to see what's taking place in me. The worst thing is when that I only notice it when the change is complete, when there's nothing I can do about it anymore. This Melissa, I barely know her. She's lazy to the very max, she'd be the winner if she's in a laziness competition. She gets bad mod all the time. The worst thing about her is that she's forgotten how to love. I don't know how I, the new Melissa's gonna live on.
I'm having a balloon fetish. I've finally mastered how to blow balloons yesterday. A bit later, but yeah. And I can blow two at the same time. They're making my day. Well, not as much as someone could. And only he could. I miss him, I do, but there's nothing I can do. It's always the time you need the person most you notice how dumb you are. I'm at the down-est down now. I don't know how I'm gonna make it through.
PS. Sometimes I wish I could have my memory wiped clean. Then at least it won't be so painful. I'll forget him, I'll forget how bad my wrist is causing my playing to suck. Everything, gone.
grew up in a small town,
and when the rain would fall down. i'd just stare out my window.
Hi, my name is MELISSALOKQIANHUI.
I’m currently in BOWEN secondary school, in an awesome class 3e2/4e2
I’m a part of the Bowen Military Band
That’s all you need to know, really.
