Sunday, June 6, 2010 // 11:36 PM
No, it's not like that. OH REALLY? Why, oh why now? I'm really gonna explode. I hope it won't be now, 'cause tomorrow I'll be far far away from home. I shouldn't explode. I wish I won't, I hope I won't. I don't know what'll happen. Being depressed is good enough, I don't want madness. I'm done with my life, or at least it feels like that. I haven't felt alive since mid-January. Doesn't really matter anyway, nobody cares what. Why should I care if I'm dead or alive, since nobody does? NEVERMIND. DAMN THE STUPID LONER, SADISTIC EMO THOUGHT. Yeah, FML. Perfect phrase to express my feelings. WOW. No, it didn't blood mattered, so it fucking won't.
Tomorrow will be a long long day for me. Gonna wake up at 6 leave home at 6.30 to Eunos. I don't think I could sleep tonight. I'm not tired, but I'm not excited. Given my mood now, I'll have to survive one bloody sleepless night again, as usual. FUCKMYLIFE, really. Nothing can salvage the bad bad mood, so it suck. Wanna die now, but I can't. It sucks, seriously. I feel like the dumbest person on earth, but that's not the worst part. The worst part is that I can't help it. FTW, seriously. Sleepless nights. Freak me out a little more than usual, because I've not been sleeping well for a long long time. Damn. I wanna fly a kite now. CRAZYYYYY.
如果我先在对你说我爱你，你会怎么做？若我在次拥抱你，你会说什么？我只能告诉你，我非常非常爱你。我很努力地在改变这个事实，但就是改变不了。对不起，给你带来那么大的困扰。我不是有意的。真的，我很爱你，我是不会故意去做一些会伤害你，或令你不自在的事情的。对不起，害到你这么怕我，躲避我，不和我说话。这都是我的错。我真的没办发。原谅我吧，我爱你。
PS, I've never wanted to disturb you. I can't help it. I just love you. It's torturing me. I'm trying not to love you, but I can't. It's my fault. I'm too weak. Sorry, I love you.
Sunday, June 6, 2010 // 11:36 PM
No, it's not like that. OH REALLY? Why, oh why now? I'm really gonna explode. I hope it won't be now, 'cause tomorrow I'll be far far away from home. I shouldn't explode. I wish I won't, I hope I won't. I don't know what'll happen. Being depressed is good enough, I don't want madness. I'm done with my life, or at least it feels like that. I haven't felt alive since mid-January. Doesn't really matter anyway, nobody cares what. Why should I care if I'm dead or alive, since nobody does? NEVERMIND. DAMN THE STUPID LONER, SADISTIC EMO THOUGHT. Yeah, FML. Perfect phrase to express my feelings. WOW. No, it didn't blood mattered, so it fucking won't.
Tomorrow will be a long long day for me. Gonna wake up at 6 leave home at 6.30 to Eunos. I don't think I could sleep tonight. I'm not tired, but I'm not excited. Given my mood now, I'll have to survive one bloody sleepless night again, as usual. FUCKMYLIFE, really. Nothing can salvage the bad bad mood, so it suck. Wanna die now, but I can't. It sucks, seriously. I feel like the dumbest person on earth, but that's not the worst part. The worst part is that I can't help it. FTW, seriously. Sleepless nights. Freak me out a little more than usual, because I've not been sleeping well for a long long time. Damn. I wanna fly a kite now. CRAZYYYYY.
如果我先在对你说我爱你，你会怎么做？若我在次拥抱你，你会说什么？我只能告诉你，我非常非常爱你。我很努力地在改变这个事实，但就是改变不了。对不起，给你带来那么大的困扰。我不是有意的。真的，我很爱你，我是不会故意去做一些会伤害你，或令你不自在的事情的。对不起，害到你这么怕我，躲避我，不和我说话。这都是我的错。我真的没办发。原谅我吧，我爱你。
PS, I've never wanted to disturb you. I can't help it. I just love you. It's torturing me. I'm trying not to love you, but I can't. It's my fault. I'm too weak. Sorry, I love you.
grew up in a small town,
and when the rain would fall down. i'd just stare out my window.
Hi, my name is MELISSALOKQIANHUI.
I’m currently in BOWEN secondary school, in an awesome class 3e2/4e2
I’m a part of the Bowen Military Band
That’s all you need to know, really.
