Saturday, June 5, 2010 // 11:12 PM
Hungry, yeah. At this time. Late night. Should die. So yeah, I don't have anything to eat at home. Another sleepless night it'll be. Sucks.
Today's a very eventful day. Sucks, but still eventful. Sucks, because it had been a terribly long day, and I can't be more tired (I don't feel like sleeping though). Woke up at 6 by some idiot smoking below my room. Sensitive nose. Then went for band, rushed home then rushed to SF. Was almost late, reached at 4 sharp. Kinda suck, 'cause everything was in a hurry. After that went to grandma's house and went home at 9 plus. That's how long it's been for me. I'm really tired. God knows why I'm so hungry now.
My mood's really mad today. I feel like laughing and screaming at the same time. Weird one. First time though, so it's kinda scary. It really really is. I've forgotten to bring my B flat for band practice today, and slacked quite a lot during sectionals, because I can't play with them. Practicing E flat myself kinda suck. I can't play too loud, I'll disturb the rest, and I don't wanna play the high notes. But at least I more or less figured out some parts of the score. It wasn't that useless lahh. Thank goodness, or I'll feel guilty for very long again.
PMS, you might call it. But I can't can't let go no matter how hard I try. I'm that useless. I can't even forget someone. I can't even stop loving someone who doesn't love me anymroe, who mayn't even loved me in the first place, from the start. What an idiot? Just FUCKMYLIFE. I wanna die. The more I live on, the more I find myself wanting and needing him. Whenever I see him, I have this impulse of hugging him. I feel like shit. Life can't get any worse nowadays. Reality had been sucky. I'm losing sleep, I can't even escape reality. SUCKS. WHAT AN IDIOT.
PS. I still love you, I don't know why.
Saturday, June 5, 2010 // 11:12 PM
Hungry, yeah. At this time. Late night. Should die. So yeah, I don't have anything to eat at home. Another sleepless night it'll be. Sucks.
Today's a very eventful day. Sucks, but still eventful. Sucks, because it had been a terribly long day, and I can't be more tired (I don't feel like sleeping though). Woke up at 6 by some idiot smoking below my room. Sensitive nose. Then went for band, rushed home then rushed to SF. Was almost late, reached at 4 sharp. Kinda suck, 'cause everything was in a hurry. After that went to grandma's house and went home at 9 plus. That's how long it's been for me. I'm really tired. God knows why I'm so hungry now.
My mood's really mad today. I feel like laughing and screaming at the same time. Weird one. First time though, so it's kinda scary. It really really is. I've forgotten to bring my B flat for band practice today, and slacked quite a lot during sectionals, because I can't play with them. Practicing E flat myself kinda suck. I can't play too loud, I'll disturb the rest, and I don't wanna play the high notes. But at least I more or less figured out some parts of the score. It wasn't that useless lahh. Thank goodness, or I'll feel guilty for very long again.
PMS, you might call it. But I can't can't let go no matter how hard I try. I'm that useless. I can't even forget someone. I can't even stop loving someone who doesn't love me anymroe, who mayn't even loved me in the first place, from the start. What an idiot? Just FUCKMYLIFE. I wanna die. The more I live on, the more I find myself wanting and needing him. Whenever I see him, I have this impulse of hugging him. I feel like shit. Life can't get any worse nowadays. Reality had been sucky. I'm losing sleep, I can't even escape reality. SUCKS. WHAT AN IDIOT.
PS. I still love you, I don't know why.
grew up in a small town,
and when the rain would fall down. i'd just stare out my window.
Hi, my name is MELISSALOKQIANHUI.
I’m currently in BOWEN secondary school, in an awesome class 3e2/4e2
I’m a part of the Bowen Military Band
That’s all you need to know, really.
