Thursday, March 11, 2010 // 11:07 PM
What is everything else, when life don't mean anything to you anymore? When life doesn't mean anything at all. I don't know anything anymore. I'm not doing anything, because I simply don't know what to do. And that does. SUCK. Life has lost its meaning alongside with everything else. Everything else to me's just simply meaningless. Don't go change it, sorry's not good enough.
Meaningless meanings. I still have to live my life until it ends. It helps to think that everyday draws me nearer to that. It's my responsibility to live my life. That really makes me feel like shit. I just don't feel like waking up every morning. I struggle to. I always want to convince myself that I'm not on earth anymore. It fails every time, because I'm still alive and kicking. It sucks. I really feel like standing on the street waiting for something to bang me down and die. I've been looking down from fourteenth floor, wondering how much pain there'll be if I jumped down.
Well, I still have to thank those who patiently listened to me rant just now. Jessica, Jonathan, Mei Hui and Huilin. I'm sorry that I couldn't control my emotions. It's been in me for too too long. It just had to come out. Sorry if I was really really rude. I think I was. So for that, sorry. I never thought of doing that this time. I just couldn't handle it anymore. Crying gave me a throbbing headache. Nothing more. Thank you people for being there. =)
PS. Stop making decisions for me. You never knew or ever known what I want. I guess you never will know.
Thursday, March 11, 2010 // 11:07 PM
What is everything else, when life don't mean anything to you anymore? When life doesn't mean anything at all. I don't know anything anymore. I'm not doing anything, because I simply don't know what to do. And that does. SUCK. Life has lost its meaning alongside with everything else. Everything else to me's just simply meaningless. Don't go change it, sorry's not good enough.
Meaningless meanings. I still have to live my life until it ends. It helps to think that everyday draws me nearer to that. It's my responsibility to live my life. That really makes me feel like shit. I just don't feel like waking up every morning. I struggle to. I always want to convince myself that I'm not on earth anymore. It fails every time, because I'm still alive and kicking. It sucks. I really feel like standing on the street waiting for something to bang me down and die. I've been looking down from fourteenth floor, wondering how much pain there'll be if I jumped down.
Well, I still have to thank those who patiently listened to me rant just now. Jessica, Jonathan, Mei Hui and Huilin. I'm sorry that I couldn't control my emotions. It's been in me for too too long. It just had to come out. Sorry if I was really really rude. I think I was. So for that, sorry. I never thought of doing that this time. I just couldn't handle it anymore. Crying gave me a throbbing headache. Nothing more. Thank you people for being there. =)
PS. Stop making decisions for me. You never knew or ever known what I want. I guess you never will know.
grew up in a small town,
and when the rain would fall down. i'd just stare out my window.
Hi, my name is MELISSALOKQIANHUI.
I’m currently in BOWEN secondary school, in an awesome class 3e2/4e2
I’m a part of the Bowen Military Band
That’s all you need to know, really.
dreaming of what could be,
and if i'll end up happy, i will pray.
