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Saturday, March 13, 2010 // 10:26 PM
Don't ask why life sucks. It suck because it does. Randomly, I saw 'love is forever' on someone's blog. Then I thought of the girls' favourite song. It adds up to 'love is forever, forever is over. ' Don't ask why I'm always thinking pessimistic, it's just me. There's no way to think positive if you're me. I've forgotten everything about thinking positively.
I now have broken my record that was never meant to be broken anymore, as of January don't know how many-th. Can't remember the freaking date. I now have additional ones. I'm starting from scratch about living my life. I've forgotten how to do it. I'm falling in love with standing and staring into blank spaces.
Today was sucky. Had my grade 5 theory paper, it sucked. I'm not gonna get distinction. I'll kill myself when the results are out because I won't get a distinction. Speak about how useless I am? You know how useless I am. I'm not good at anything. Even the only ability I have had had decided to leave me a few weeks ago. Sucks. It really does. I'm not going to think about how I'm gonna survive this year. There's no way I can. Look at everything that has happened, my hands, my school work, my results and now I can't even do a fucking theory paper properly. Who ought to be shot to death? Nobody but me. Let's not forget about other things like you know what. It's always nice to know that nobody reads my blog. I can say whatever I want, enjoying the privacy.
It's been 2 months already. I'm nowhere near getting over you, despite how hard I tried being hard. You made two requests, both I can't live up to. It's no way I can treat you normally. I have to avoid you. I don't know anything else anymore, than to act like nothing has happened, so that I wouldn't be reminded of anything that has happened. It's still bleeding. I'm losing blood so fast, I don't know how much longer I have left. After two months, the bleeding hasn't stop, the pain is still not numb enough for me to not feel anything. It doesn't really matter does it? You don't care, no matter how much pain I'm feeling. No you don't care whether I miss you, whether I still love you. You won't even be there as a friend. You're a stranger. You treat me like a stranger. You can't even do what you requested me to. What do you want me to do? If you're not strong enough, I will not be. At all. You know how much weaker I am. I don't know why, after so long, after so much have happened, I still can't get over it. I still love you. It doesn't matter. You don't care. And what's left to say? My soul is dead, even if I'm physically alive, nothing matters. I want to care, maybe I still do, but I don't have the strength to carrying on and keep up anymore. I still love you.
Saturday, March 13, 2010 // 10:26 PM
Don't ask why life sucks. It suck because it does. Randomly, I saw 'love is forever' on someone's blog. Then I thought of the girls' favourite song. It adds up to 'love is forever, forever is over. ' Don't ask why I'm always thinking pessimistic, it's just me. There's no way to think positive if you're me. I've forgotten everything about thinking positively.
I now have broken my record that was never meant to be broken anymore, as of January don't know how many-th. Can't remember the freaking date. I now have additional ones. I'm starting from scratch about living my life. I've forgotten how to do it. I'm falling in love with standing and staring into blank spaces.
Today was sucky. Had my grade 5 theory paper, it sucked. I'm not gonna get distinction. I'll kill myself when the results are out because I won't get a distinction. Speak about how useless I am? You know how useless I am. I'm not good at anything. Even the only ability I have had had decided to leave me a few weeks ago. Sucks. It really does. I'm not going to think about how I'm gonna survive this year. There's no way I can. Look at everything that has happened, my hands, my school work, my results and now I can't even do a fucking theory paper properly. Who ought to be shot to death? Nobody but me. Let's not forget about other things like you know what. It's always nice to know that nobody reads my blog. I can say whatever I want, enjoying the privacy.
It's been 2 months already. I'm nowhere near getting over you, despite how hard I tried being hard. You made two requests, both I can't live up to. It's no way I can treat you normally. I have to avoid you. I don't know anything else anymore, than to act like nothing has happened, so that I wouldn't be reminded of anything that has happened. It's still bleeding. I'm losing blood so fast, I don't know how much longer I have left. After two months, the bleeding hasn't stop, the pain is still not numb enough for me to not feel anything. It doesn't really matter does it? You don't care, no matter how much pain I'm feeling. No you don't care whether I miss you, whether I still love you. You won't even be there as a friend. You're a stranger. You treat me like a stranger. You can't even do what you requested me to. What do you want me to do? If you're not strong enough, I will not be. At all. You know how much weaker I am. I don't know why, after so long, after so much have happened, I still can't get over it. I still love you. It doesn't matter. You don't care. And what's left to say? My soul is dead, even if I'm physically alive, nothing matters. I want to care, maybe I still do, but I don't have the strength to carrying on and keep up anymore. I still love you.
grew up in a small town,
and when the rain would fall down. i'd just stare out my window.
Hi, my name is MELISSALOKQIANHUI.
I’m currently in BOWEN secondary school, in an awesome class 3e2/4e2
I’m a part of the Bowen Military Band
That’s all you need to know, really.
dreaming of what could be,
and if i'll end up happy, i will pray.
wanna feel the warm breeze,
sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean.
