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Thursday, January 28, 2010 // 9:52 PM
All things happens for a reason. No matter how hard I try to keep that in my mind, it just refuse to remember it. Things are getting from bad from worse. And gah, I just started to feel better yesterday. Today, all bad things happen. I don't know, I really don't know what else to do. I haven't got anyone to turn to lately. Sorry Jake, but I know I haven't been telling you things and you're really worried. I can't open up anymore. It's too much for me to digest within such a short period of time. Nothing gets through my mind. It doesn't work at all. I hate that feeling. Cried more than twice today, I don't think it made me feel any clearer about the shits I'm facing.
Well, when the romantic pains are gone, the unromantic ones come. It's supposed to be less painful, but it feels a million times more painful than the one in front. I guess this time, I'll really give up. What's the point of holding on, trying your best, trying to satisfy others? I'm me, not them. I don't owe people a living. I don't need you to thank me, but at least stop talking about unreal truths behind my back. If you really think that I'm useless, stupid, lazy, hopeless and that I'm a big fat liar, then fine. From tomorrow onwards, say bye bye. You won't see my face. And I'll make sure that happens. That's your motive behind all these things right? Get me out make me feel like shit. Hurt me and you won't need to see me forever. I can make that happen. That'll happen soon. I'll smile at you if you're upset with me when you read this. It's okay if you hate me. I don't mind. I don't need you to like me. You're just someone that's not in any of our lives anymore, so stop squeezing in and try to fit in. You never cared about us, then why do you care so much now? Yes, I'm being petty about this. This happened some time ago. What made me cry in the afternoon, you don't need to know. School sucks. It really does. The people in it makes it worse sometimes. I still love the E word. EGO. It really amazes me when your self-proclaimed good friend of yours makes you cry and doesn't know about it. I don't need anybody sympathizing me. So stop acting like you care. Third time. I'm not gonna let the fourth time happened again. I finally know why they all call me the typical Joanna. Only I'm stupid enough to get cheated and duped many many times by the same person by the same reason and yet allow it to happen. You talk about people's ego, what about yours? You only want to win people over to your side, nothing else.
School has only started for a week, but I can only tell you that nothing can get worse. At least school work hasn't been a big problem for me yet, besides Social Studies, 'cause I really dislike it. The only problem is that I'm lazy. Just like how it happened last year. Hopefully no, I'll work hard now but not only for that few months. Hopefully, hopefully. Things will get better, and tears will not be shed for unworthy reasons anymore. Damn EGO.
Thursday, January 28, 2010 // 9:52 PM
All things happens for a reason. No matter how hard I try to keep that in my mind, it just refuse to remember it. Things are getting from bad from worse. And gah, I just started to feel better yesterday. Today, all bad things happen. I don't know, I really don't know what else to do. I haven't got anyone to turn to lately. Sorry Jake, but I know I haven't been telling you things and you're really worried. I can't open up anymore. It's too much for me to digest within such a short period of time. Nothing gets through my mind. It doesn't work at all. I hate that feeling. Cried more than twice today, I don't think it made me feel any clearer about the shits I'm facing.
Well, when the romantic pains are gone, the unromantic ones come. It's supposed to be less painful, but it feels a million times more painful than the one in front. I guess this time, I'll really give up. What's the point of holding on, trying your best, trying to satisfy others? I'm me, not them. I don't owe people a living. I don't need you to thank me, but at least stop talking about unreal truths behind my back. If you really think that I'm useless, stupid, lazy, hopeless and that I'm a big fat liar, then fine. From tomorrow onwards, say bye bye. You won't see my face. And I'll make sure that happens. That's your motive behind all these things right? Get me out make me feel like shit. Hurt me and you won't need to see me forever. I can make that happen. That'll happen soon. I'll smile at you if you're upset with me when you read this. It's okay if you hate me. I don't mind. I don't need you to like me. You're just someone that's not in any of our lives anymore, so stop squeezing in and try to fit in. You never cared about us, then why do you care so much now? Yes, I'm being petty about this. This happened some time ago. What made me cry in the afternoon, you don't need to know. School sucks. It really does. The people in it makes it worse sometimes. I still love the E word. EGO. It really amazes me when your self-proclaimed good friend of yours makes you cry and doesn't know about it. I don't need anybody sympathizing me. So stop acting like you care. Third time. I'm not gonna let the fourth time happened again. I finally know why they all call me the typical Joanna. Only I'm stupid enough to get cheated and duped many many times by the same person by the same reason and yet allow it to happen. You talk about people's ego, what about yours? You only want to win people over to your side, nothing else.
School has only started for a week, but I can only tell you that nothing can get worse. At least school work hasn't been a big problem for me yet, besides Social Studies, 'cause I really dislike it. The only problem is that I'm lazy. Just like how it happened last year. Hopefully no, I'll work hard now but not only for that few months. Hopefully, hopefully. Things will get better, and tears will not be shed for unworthy reasons anymore. Damn EGO.
grew up in a small town,
and when the rain would fall down. i'd just stare out my window.
Hi, my name is MELISSALOKQIANHUI.
I’m currently in BOWEN secondary school, in an awesome class 3e2/4e2
I’m a part of the Bowen Military Band
That’s all you need to know, really.
dreaming of what could be,
and if i'll end up happy, i will pray.
wanna feel the warm breeze,
sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean.
