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Thursday, December 3, 2009 // 7:33 PM
It suck, it really did. I can't handle it anymore. I thought. I thought. Things are so much better than it used to be. I can't do it. Things are going far too well, I'm so freaked out by the thought of it. What if it's all fake, it's all a dream? I'm doubting every step I take. I too afraid, it went too too well. I don't wanna fall. Things are going too fast. I don't know how to handle it all. Whilst containing my joy, I'm battling the fate of these all ending sooner than I think it'll be. I don't know what I should do. It feels like I'm not in control anymore. It feels so weird to not be in control/ I'm doing things that I know will kill me. These things are just, too good to be true. I can't help it.
Today, had sectional. Almost peed in my pants. Was marching, and really needed to toilet. Ran to the toilet after we fell out. My bladder almost burst. I don't like timing, at all. Being the timer sucks. It really does. Good thing I'm a girl, not a guy. After sectional, waited for Priya with Erika and Mei Hui, since we had nothing better to do. Chatted pretty much, I was doing stupid things, acting like a mad woman. We waited for very long, in the end, Priya didn't go out with Erika. LOL.
A lot of things happened to my health recently. I don't eat at all. After a few bites, I'll get nausea and often almost vomit. The brilliant thing is that I don't even need milk to cause diarrhea. It's just weird. It's worser than the primary school days, but hopefully not the cause isn't the same thing. Life is getting suckier, I've totally lost my way and direction. I know no one will guide me anymore. It just feels like I'm all on my own. It sucks and makes me wanna cry. Today's a bad bad day. Regretted walking home from Xin Min Sec. I'm not supposed to cry now. Haha... It's an agreement. A retarded one. I still did, today. Must quit crying. It seem like I'm addicted to it sometimes.
You may thing that what you've said mean nothing but it has hurt us too much. More than enough. It's been so long. Do you people even care? You're telling us every time you're near us.
Till then,
Melissa
PS. Those little things you do those magical words you say manages to help me pull through every time. I love you.
Thursday, December 3, 2009 // 7:33 PM
It suck, it really did. I can't handle it anymore. I thought. I thought. Things are so much better than it used to be. I can't do it. Things are going far too well, I'm so freaked out by the thought of it. What if it's all fake, it's all a dream? I'm doubting every step I take. I too afraid, it went too too well. I don't wanna fall. Things are going too fast. I don't know how to handle it all. Whilst containing my joy, I'm battling the fate of these all ending sooner than I think it'll be. I don't know what I should do. It feels like I'm not in control anymore. It feels so weird to not be in control/ I'm doing things that I know will kill me. These things are just, too good to be true. I can't help it.
Today, had sectional. Almost peed in my pants. Was marching, and really needed to toilet. Ran to the toilet after we fell out. My bladder almost burst. I don't like timing, at all. Being the timer sucks. It really does. Good thing I'm a girl, not a guy. After sectional, waited for Priya with Erika and Mei Hui, since we had nothing better to do. Chatted pretty much, I was doing stupid things, acting like a mad woman. We waited for very long, in the end, Priya didn't go out with Erika. LOL.
A lot of things happened to my health recently. I don't eat at all. After a few bites, I'll get nausea and often almost vomit. The brilliant thing is that I don't even need milk to cause diarrhea. It's just weird. It's worser than the primary school days, but hopefully not the cause isn't the same thing. Life is getting suckier, I've totally lost my way and direction. I know no one will guide me anymore. It just feels like I'm all on my own. It sucks and makes me wanna cry. Today's a bad bad day. Regretted walking home from Xin Min Sec. I'm not supposed to cry now. Haha... It's an agreement. A retarded one. I still did, today. Must quit crying. It seem like I'm addicted to it sometimes.
You may thing that what you've said mean nothing but it has hurt us too much. More than enough. It's been so long. Do you people even care? You're telling us every time you're near us.
Till then,
Melissa
PS. Those little things you do those magical words you say manages to help me pull through every time. I love you.
grew up in a small town,
and when the rain would fall down. i'd just stare out my window.
Hi, my name is MELISSALOKQIANHUI.
I’m currently in BOWEN secondary school, in an awesome class 3e2/4e2
I’m a part of the Bowen Military Band
That’s all you need to know, really.
dreaming of what could be,
and if i'll end up happy, i will pray.
wanna feel the warm breeze,
sleep under a palm tree, feel the rush of the ocean.
